Feel Good Moment

If you would have asked me when I was a little girl what life would be like at 23 I would have told you:
-Married
-Pregnant
-Graduated
-Great Job

Isn't it strange how you think your life will be one way and then you wake up and the life you have is completely different.

So what is life at 23?
It's weird.
I'm no longer a teenager, but I don't quite feel like a grown up yet.
Everyone I know is in such different places in their lives.
I have friends that are married, friends that are pregnant and friends that have families. But, I also have friends that are single, working, going to school, etc.
And I'm just kind of lost somewhere in between it all.

This past weekend I kind of had meltdown, okay I had a full blown feel sorry for myself cry sesh. I kept thinking...
I have no friends.
I have no life.
I have no clue what to be when I "grow up".
I'm so lonely.
I was focusing on what I thought was missing in my life, because I was comparing my life to everyone around me. My life was not going as I thought it would when I was a little girl and this was seriously weighing on me.

Then I got a reality check. (From the mouth of a 17 year old boy haha)

I was lucky enough to drive my brother and all his friends home from Lake Powell this weekend. My car still smells like sweaty teenage boys. On this drive I saw a different side of the teenage boy. When I thought about driving teenage boys home I didn't think about having some of the best conversations that I have ever had.

We talked about things like regrets, mistakes, fears and insecurities, but the moment that really slapped me in the face was when we started talking about "feel good moments".
Those moments that you just realize how happy you are and how great life is. We went around and told our latest feel good moments and at this time I realized how lucky I am. It was truly a "feel good moment".

I thought about my melt down and how silly it was. I realized that I need to focus on the "feel good moments" and search for them.

So, instead of thinking about what I don't have I am going to be grateful for what I do have.

I have the BEST family. I say this often and I mean it every time. My family members are my closest friends. We support each other, we fight for each other, we care about each other. There is no one that I would rather spend my time with. At times I may feel lonely, but I know that I will always have my family. They will always be there for me. How lucky am I?

I have two amazing jobs that allow me to go to school. Cheer has always been a very large part of my life and we have had our ups and downs, but I am so grateful to be able to share my love of cheer with young girls (and boys). Each and every one of my cheerleaders has a special place in my heart and they make me so happy. 
My job at Professional Recruiter has taught me so much. It has helped me to grow into some version of a self efficient young adult. I love the people that I work with and I am able to learn everyday from one of the women that I look up to the most. It's nice to be able to walk down the hall and get advice at any time. I enjoy my jobs and not many people have the opportunity to say that.

I have true friendships. I have a small group of friends who have  been in my life for many years and although we are at different places in our lives I know that they are always there. I may not see them as often as I would like but I know they are there and will continue to be there. Having friends that are family and family that are friends is one of the best parts of my life. 

I do have a life, the best life.

So, what is life really like at 23? 
Simply put, it's a "feel good moment".